“You are looking at a miracle.”
It’s a phrase I printed out and framed. I keep it on my bathroom counter where I can look at it every time I see myself in the mirror.
I need the reminder. Otherwise the critic in my head gets loud – the critic that tells me I’m too fat, not smart enough, not good enough, not worthy of love…
I need the reminder that I am a miracle. When I start playing with my fat rolls, I need the reminder that my body is a miracle. When I start doubting myself at work. I need the reminder that my intellect is a miracle. When I start doubting my writing, I need the reminder that my creativity is a miracle.
“You are looking at a miracle.”
That truth gets lost in the day-to-day monotony of lies I tell myself. Lies depression tells me. Lies bipolar mania tells me. It is a truth I must try to hold onto.
Because the truth is we are all miracles. We are not humans trying to live a spiritual existence – we are spiritual beings living a human existence.
When I embrace that idea, I can live my day in grace and peace. I don’t struggle so much with my disorders and addictions.
Spring is the perfect time of year to embrace new life – it’s the perfect time to embrace your own miracle – the miracle of you. Shrug off the old belief that you’re not good enough! You are exactly what and who you’re supposed to be.
Live your life with new mantras
This past weekend, my beautiful sister-in-law gave me a leather cuff with an engraving on it.
You are loved – You are valued – You are beautiful!
I wear it every day now. So often, I forget these things. But with these as my mantras, wearing them on my wrist, I hope to remember, especially that I am loved.
I have so much love in my life! But I’m not very good at receiving it. Thoughts of unworthiness creep in, and instead of simply receiving the love that I am given, I try to give it back or deny it.
For example, I can’t receive a simple compliment without making a detrimental comment about myself. The color of nail polish I picked out looks pretty to you? It’s too dark a color for spring, I say. I should have picked something lighter. Rarely can I manage to simply say, “Thank you” and receive a compliment in love.
I need to practice vulnerability. I need to accept love as it is given. It is such a strangely painful thing to do! Because it forces me to recognize that other people see value in me. Other people see me as worthy of being loved. So the voice in my head, the one that tells me I am not worthy, that voice is a liar.
What a wonderful thing to remember on days like today when I can barely get out of bed. I can remember that I am loved for who I am.
Don’t let the scars of your past define you
It’s easy to dwell in the past – to linger on past hurt and shame. But if we embrace the miracle of us, we will move past the hurt. We will see that we survived. We become survivors instead of victims.
Forgiveness is a powerful thing. It is not saying that what the other person did was okay or right in any way. It is simply a conscious decision to release feelings of resentment towards those who have harmed you. You will no longer carry that burden.
Forgiveness is more for you than it is for the other person. When we forgive – when we let go of that desire for vengeance – we give ourselves the chance to live freely in the present moment. We give ourselves the chance to heal.
This spring, honor yourself. Tell yourself you are worthy of love and care and forgiveness. Embrace yourself with all life has to offer, and the miracle of you will unfold.
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